been busy and such

found job, lost job and now am at new one. hope to get to writing again once things get settled more. now live in austin. hope things get better.

don’t mind me- i’m just “angry”

i think it funny that we, as a “society,”

confuse passion for anger

and empathy for weakness;

that strong opinions mean one must be wielding a sword in one hand

and ill- thought in the other, is as ridiculous as the consumer whore-ism

and dumb bimbos- male and female, we toss our dollars and our children at.

better yet, tears of joy or sorrow, tears at all- have now become the unholy mark of those we must scoff at and belittle

“obviously” these meager souls have no sense of their own given the emotions shown.

so i guess that’s why we, in our absentee caring, prefer to dumb down a nation than to listen and share in the human condition.

in dreams

i sit in the dark,

a candle slaps the void.

i offer a silent scream to the moon

i see out my window.

my bed is empty

the ink, your pictures are gone.

my nights feel wrong.

i have no one to talk to,

no one to think with—

no one sleeps,

not even in our dreams.

 

TOP 10 MOVIES I DISLIKE/DON’T CARE FOR, THAT EVERYONE SEEMS TO LOVE or LIKE

1- The Sound of Music

2- The Wizard of Oz

3- Gone with the Wind

4- GHOST

5- The Goonies

6- Sex in the City, 1 & 2

7- The Scream series of crap

8- The Paranormal Activity piles of poop

9- Aladdin, Cinderella, Alice in Wonderland

10- Titanic & Avatar

Okay, it’s more than 10- couldn’t help it…

asphalt

my heart exploded inside

when you took that ride.

pieces of you scattered

on an asphalt blanket.

blood and bone

you wouldn’t come home.

i take comfort inside,

you’re a diamond

in the night’s sky.

3 wishes

i sat by the pond to watch the fish swim

but found myself within a sun puddle

and thinking of them

i wished them death

i wished them luck

i wish i didn’t give a fuck

slippers and journals

i made some slippers out of seashells

so shards of beauty would be left in my wake

but all i saw were my shattered dreams

and broken hope

— and then i awoke to find

my thoughts scattered about my room

in journals and frozen on my computer