Posts Tagged ‘dating’

so this week has sucked. it began well. i had an interview that was to lead to a 2nd that week and i was going to see the guy i had been seeing since jan.

later that night it all went to crap.

w/o going into detail, the evening w/person i had been looking forward to seeing went awry somehow- not sure what happened actually- in holding pattern on that matter. i hope things pan out b/c 1- i did like his company & 2- i do care about him.

the job thing seemed to spring forward from meh evening.

i got a call the following morning saying that they needed to reschedule the 2nd interview- i still have not heard back and had even sent an email asking what’s up so to speak. monday i shall call them to see what is up- hopefully they will see i am eager to have job and schedule a 2nd interview soon!

just feeling pretty glum b/c i am at mercy of others- this is a common thread in my existence since my birth.

just venting. i do realize things could be way worse but it would be nice to feel more at ease about things at dis ease 😦

good vibes apply within if you can spare them & if you know how i am feeling…


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getting to know another human being after being treated like i am invisible by one several mths. ago.

this one is unique i must say. i mean i know we all are but this one requires a little more patience and wrangling in of my extroverted personality. i am still feisty but must adapt to one more suited for quiet nights in than being out all night. i think we’ve reached compromises since our first meeting in jan.

while we go out and enjoy stuff, we do call it an evening early and hang out and watch movies or tv shows, etc. soon the challenge will be his work schedule. oddly enough i found another guy that will make his living in the kitchen. i am excited for him and hope he does great in his new work environment 😀 😀 😀

the challenge will come when we need to make time for one another. i hope a compromise can be reached that won’t put either of us out too much. i know for my part i will do my best to make time for him in addition to my work schedule and family commitments.

he’s got a tough personality to get use to as i am sure many would say of me, but i like to think i can help soften him a SLIGHT bit- not change him, but coax him into a semi-non-combative, not so totally screw authority state, lol.

interestingly enough, it’s his personality which tickles me the most- well, that and his tattoos and piercings 😀

i find that he always has something interesting to say and i appreciate how he has no problem telling someone to go to hell.

in any case, i am enjoying his company and seeing where it goes…

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i played badminton the other day 

and hit cupid in the wing

he cursed up and down

as i rolled on the ground

laughing because i was aiming for his 

quiver of half-smitten arrows


the cat gave a beat down today

it attacked the evil that wanted to stay

she gnawed it raw

and slashed it with her paws

until it expired

and she disappeared

back into the healing waters


the bird with feathers of fire came

it nestled on a weather vane

proud it was

it pruned its long red wings

it picked out the frailties

and insecurities

while it left its heart with a hairline fracture

it hoped it could still beat amongst the chatter

of pale and sick fowl that made food of corpses

that littered the ground

while somewhere her mate

flies higher to find her.



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now some of you may have read my last blog on what i should do next time i meet a guy that tickles my fancy… i’m seriously considering something like that and charging an outrageous fee for use- who’s w/me.

while some of my methods would violate the geneva conventions, i do think i may have something here w/my ideas of prepping my would be love interest w/questions or tasks in order to deem him worthy.

on a more slightly less violent scale, i am half tempted to draft a contract and have things listed on them, let him go over it w/me in front of a third party and then he signs it. i could then say something like- this position has many applicants but since you were willing to sign this contract, you’ve made your way to top of the list!

such things that would be on list, specific to me would be:

you will contact me at least twice a week, but no more than three times. Exception: lost job, death of person or family pet,  stressful family, stressful friends, band stuff, etc. 

you will contact me at least once on the wknd.

texting & IM-ing, is not an acceptable form of communication, unless: you are at work or we’ve been seeing each other for more than a month. ya see that? it’s a freaking period!

acceptable forms of communication: pick up the damn phone and show real effort! bonus points for writing notes or letters and mailing them or handing them to me upon next meeting.

you will pay for things: breakfast, lunch, dinner or snacks and movies- anything else we shall discuss; i will return favor by also paying for things.

you will ask me questions about myself. believe it or not, i tend to consider a male important and ask him things so he can make himself look awesome and hopefully more appealing to me. so don’t leave me feeling like: does he want to know anything about me. when this happens- warning is given, second time- go away now, you irk me.

you will be responsible for planning things we do. i don’t get paid to be your vacation planner or babysitter.

you will tidy your place up each time i am to enter. seriously- though i am mexican, i am not there to clean your shit! do you see Consuela on my shirt or name tag?!

you will accept that i have male friends and like it! here’s a hint- you want me to have these friends so i don’t strangle you for your sometime stupidity.

i am not high maintenance; however, you will show your affection for me from time to time: pick me a flower, write a poem or cute note, or buy me fries- yes i said it- french fries! better yet- i have guy friends that have known me for yrs.- ask them what i like- duh!

though i am a tomboy, i do like girly things and guess what…. I AM A GIRL!

you will know my pets name and ask me how she’s doing. if i take an interest in your pet, at least try to know i like cats and think they need to be worshiped.

LOL is not acceptable conversation!

you will take me on dates at least twice a month- you plan & pay- not me!

if my birthday comes up- you will treat it as if it were a holiday and take the time to acknowledge it! for ex: i was w/a guy that did NOTHING for my birthday- i even had to pay for a pizza we ate that day. my BFF did more for me than this asshat did. hence why BFF is still around and this guy is not.

b/c i tend to be proactive, it’s almost natural for me to do things right away; however, if it feels as if i am doing the guy’s role in the courtship process- you’re fired & on to the next…

i think these are reasonable requests and are not like the girls i hear that run their man into the ground by insisting that they take them out to 4 or 5 star restaurants, feel the need to argue w/them in public, that want jewelry and/or fancy things.

there are more things i may have forgotten but this is a start and a modest proposal.





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i think in the future i need a CIA interrogator to meet w/guys before i do, then they pass on to next stage of “interview”…

next, they answer questions while dodging bullets shot by snipers in the woods, all while wearing pink boxers w/their hands tied behind them.

these two lovely experiences will then be followed by my four best guy buddies taking turns harassing them. the harassment they choose is up to them.

then if the recruit gets good marks on his “interview,” he then has the pleasure and privilege of being in my presence and enjoying my company, warmth, love and support.

but- if after a 3 week grace period, he fails- he gets thrown onto an island- battle royale style where he can fight for his meager life and hope to survive amongst all the others that have pissed me off and failed.

lesson: don’t be a predator posing as a house pet.


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twirling hair

into knots-

bound and unbound,

over and over

again; here we go…

talking faster

i can never master

the skill

of being

with another.


is my mantra

while cupid smites

me with a murder of arrows.

i still have my sorrow

of forgotten tomorrow-

maybe luck will be woven

into my coven of pain

maybe hope, as in

Pandora’s pitcher

will remain.

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so while I am still seeing or whatever-ing it’s called this guy I met online, meeting on Valentine’s Day was an epic fail! lol

recently he was sick & his phone crapped out on him & then a relative was hurt very bad in an accident. so, he has been playing nurse/help/kind relative to him. this means- no me, no nothing until his relative gets better.

so Valentine’s Day started off fine but went downhill fast. i was just in such a mood after losing quasi- positive ch’i i had going into evening- the result was me feeling crappy.

the upside, there is some hope we will meet next time i am in town for some show on the 25th w/my BFF extraordinaire 🙂

we’re in peace talks for a summit that wknd. lol. – eh just being goofy.

despite such barriers, we are still smitten for lack of better word, w/one another- and so it goes.

p.s. thanks to those that have encouraged me to hang in there & not feel need to constantly bring up my previous encounter w/someone.

i know they mean well to caution me but when it comes to being smitten, there are no rules. also, i’ve wasted many opportunities in the past by being more sensible and w/o passion, gusto or any form of enthusiasm.


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